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Family Poems
Being a teenage girl, my relationship with my family has been extremly chaotic. We've had our ups and downs, to say the least. Some of these poems, okay, most of these poems, are bitter and angry. Unfortunetly for my family, that's pretty much the only time I write poetry. :) But that doesn't mean I don't love them - I love them all very much - they just piss me off a lot :)
"Ask"
Lies, deciet, manipulation
Behind-the-back investigation
Inquisitions beating
around the bush.
You want an answer
to an unasked question.
Secret e-mails, conversations, looks
to friends, family, anyone.
Loaded questions -
loaded words
unloading on me -
for me to decipher.
"All is well" -
all is LIES
you spit out
what you despise.
You want the truth?
You first.
You've got a problem -
so ask your question -
you'd be surprised
how honest I can be -
just give it a try -
Go ahead, ASK ME!
Daddy
Sometimes I have to wonder
why my life turned out this way.
Why God let me have a father like you.
I love you because you're my father.
You've raised me and you've “cared.”
You helped me through my trials and my pain.
But you've also broken my heart -
Ruined my life.
And you expect me to let you run me?
No way, not even, I don't think so.
You're authority has no place in my life.
You're presence is unwelcome.
You've changed so much.
I no longer have a daddy.
I no longer even have you as a friend.
Once I was waiting for my daddy to come back.
I'm still waiting, but now I realize,
My daddy is dead.
There is only a shell, only a form of him left.
Only a shadow of the daddy I knew.
Now I have only a “father.”
I wish you'd just be Daddy again.
I wish you'd just come back.
Don't you realize how much I still need you?
Just let me grow up
I have this life of mine now,
free from you and your rules.
You can't handle that, can you?
Please back off
Just let me grow.
I am no longer your little girl
who you can rule however you wish
who you can control with an iron fist
I'm a big girl now,
Just let me grow.
I have desires, I have wishes, I have wants.
I am trying to find out who I am
and who I am not.
And you're going to have to let me.
Just let me grow.
I am changing, I am molding,
I am turning in to who I've always wanted to be.
But maybe not who you've wanted me to be.
I'm sorry, but you have to
Just let me grow.
You've taught me what is right and wrong.
You'll just have to trust that teaching.
Trust me to be who you've taught me to be.
Back off a little and
Just let me grow.
I'm going to make my own mistakes,
I am going to screw up and I will hit the bottom.
But it will change me and help me and make me strong.
So you have to understand and
Just let me grow.
I'm breaking out of here now,
Going off in to the world to be who I am.
Someday I'll be back when I'm all grown up.
But right now, Mom and Dad, you have to back off and
Just let me grow.
You're My Mother and I Love You
You're my mother and I love you,
for the million things you do for me,
even though sometimes you make me nuts.
You're my mother and I love you,
for all the thoughtful things you do without being asked,
even though I pretend it's not how I like it.
You're my mother and I love you,
for all the times you've been there for me,
even though I act like I want you to just go away.
You're my mother and I love you,
for always being there to save me,
even though I pretend I don't want your help.
You're my mother and I love you,
because even when I'm acting up and like I don't even care,
you're still there for me, you still love me.
You're my mother,
Mom, I love you.
Thank you for just being you.
Happy Birthday